{"id":1400256,"date":"2023-12-19T06:54:36","date_gmt":"2023-12-19T06:54:36","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.counterpunch.org\/?p=308217"},"modified":"2023-12-19T06:54:36","modified_gmt":"2023-12-19T06:54:36","slug":"can-you-hear-that-fading-cry-here-here-im-here","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/radiofree.asia\/2023\/12\/19\/can-you-hear-that-fading-cry-here-here-im-here\/","title":{"rendered":"Can You Hear That Fading Cry: \u201cHere, Here; I\u2019m Here\u201d?"},"content":{"rendered":"\"\"<\/a>\n
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Photograph Source: Boris Niehaus (www.1just.de) – CC BY-SA 4.0<\/a><\/p><\/div>\n

\u2026and thinks for a moment an angel is there<\/em>
\nbringing back love<\/em>
\nIf I must die<\/em>
\nlet it bring hope<\/em>
\nlet it be a tale.<\/em><\/i><\/p>\n

\u2013 \u00a0Final lines from martyr Refaat Alareer\u2019s \u201cIf I must die\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

As logic and law fail us, we ruefully, desperately, turn to poetry and our humanity at this awful point in the war against Palestine.\u00a0<\/u><\/u><\/p>\n

I am not a poet; yet I have to overcome this failing to try to write beyond quotidian facts and analyses. As best I can, I am driven to compose some raw personal emotions that this historical moment demands of me. Given U.S.\u2019s recent shameful veto on a UNSC resolution for a ceasefire on Gaza, given resupplies of American weapons to Israel for its murderous assault, given dismissed worldwide pleas for a ceasefire, watching individuals turn away in shame, we are driven to search beyond logic, law and statistics.\u00a0<\/u><\/u><\/p>\n

Today I want to simply impart my sensation upon waking every morning, every one of the past 10 weeks\u2019 mornings. What is kept at bay as I sleep emerges into my semi-aroused consciousness. Before I open my eyes, it rises. Resolute.<\/u><\/u><\/i><\/p>\n

Feeling it may relieve the pressure of this wedge I inhabit, I draw my limbs closer to my body. This flattened cavity where I wait is somewhere inside a building that collapsed around me, inside tens of thousands of shattered, splattered, erased homes. Exactly when this happened doesn\u2019t matter. My room where mementoes and books and clothes are buried, are nearby, somewhere, somewhere inside this darkness. I know their scent. Sometimes I hear someone calling a name. Close, yet like a fading star. Inshallah it is Aba. Maybe big sister? No; it\u2019s a new voice \u2013 this one doesn\u2019t know my name, doesn\u2019t know I am here.\u00a0\u201cWa! Way-neek, ya binit, ya walid?\u201d<\/i>\u00a0it calls. \u201cI am here\u201d, I murmur while knowing no sound can pass over my lips. My throat is so dry. The only wet I can feel is between my legs, either blood, or my urine. I have soiled myself. Does this shame mean I am still a person? I suck at my shirt collar and swallow. An instant\u2019s relief. More explosions\u2014maybe police are coming to save me. Maybe a big machine to lift all this concrete that\u2019s hiding me. How long I\u2019ve been here, I can\u2019t count. Some nights, I hear others cry; I answered. Afterwards, they went away. Maybe, I thought, they left to fetch Umo\u2019s car, to pick up Khalti. I sometimes hear planes\u2014 they come and go the same as when we were together; when Abi and Immi debated. \u201cStay inside. No. Go, go out. Better go up to the roof. No. Outside is safer. Try to flee to the hospital grounds.\u201d Sirens wailed. Ambulances rushed here and there. All through the night. Maybe all day; I didn\u2019t know. Now nothing except big bangs, sometimes near, sometimes far, far away.<\/u><\/u><\/p>\n

\u201cMaybe, if I manage to free my feet, I can scramble out, and, even in this darkness, I can find Immi. She would never abandon me; she must be not far from here. I can give her warmth; she will say again and again\u00a0\u2018Ya binti, ya binti. Humdilallah,<\/i>\u00a0you are safe beside me\u2019.<\/u><\/u><\/p>\n

My eyes open. I stretch my arms into New York\u2019s winter air as I slowly awaken. I should find relief emerging from that sight. Crawling out from under warm blankets, my feet touching soft carpet, my eyes finding blue sky: things I take for granted. Yet, they won\u2019t allow me to escape the knowledge that bombings and shootings continue their murderous work. I don\u2019t need a reality check from the morning news. Men and women, if surviving death, are still rounded up \u2013 every hour \u2013 taken away, wantonly brutalized. Sisters will still wander along the lines of corpses to retrieve little Lena and Umo Khalil. Brother Mahmoud, growing thinner by the day, still riffles through rubbish for a pot of some kind to collect any water or food. It doesn\u2019t matter the neighborhood, men still carry pregnant wives for burial.<\/u><\/u><\/p>\n

There\u2019s nothing different in international news. Except that the vindictive merciless bombing of Palestinians continues, that living conditions worsen, that diplomacy withers. News from Gaza and The West Bank diminishes as heroic journalists there are targeted, and fall.<\/u><\/u><\/s><\/p>\n

What is different these past days is the rush of poems and agonized testimonies, among them, appeals from three journalists who have been particularly resolute and piercing in their analyses of the history of Israeli plunder, capitalism, imperial hubris. One day last week each confessed to being stymied and at a loss. Their personal pleas reveal anger \u2013 no, raw anguish and utter helplessness. \u201cI Will Not Look Away<\/a>\u201d, announces the fierce critic Caitlin Johnstone. Then Craig Murray, former diplomat and human rights advocate, reviewing the Genocide Convention drawn up 75 years ago, ends with: \u201cIs there anybody reading this who really is doing enough to halt so great an evil?<\/a>\u201d\u00a0A steadfast moral voice in journalism,\u00a0Chris Hedges<\/a>\u00a0channels his anger towards us, ourselves. \u201cWe become drunk on violence; we unleash an orgy of slaughter and destruction…\u201d he charges. All of us.\u00a0<\/u><\/u><\/p>\n

Images of shameful moments in human history are posted alongside new verses composed from the souls of women and men numbed by the vision of the catastrophe underway. Among them, Lamees Al Ethari declares when I can\u2019t speak, I write: \u201c\u2026Motherhood in these times is\/precious and confusing. We watch your fingers\/bleed, lifting rubble\/rocking bundles of\/shrouds, holding firmly to bolted\/gates\u2026<\/p>\n

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\u2026and thinks for a moment an angel is there bringing back love If I must die let it bring hope let it be a tale. \u2013 \u00a0Final lines from martyr Refaat Alareer\u2019s \u201cIf I must die\u201d As logic and law fail us, we ruefully, desperately, turn to poetry and our humanity at this awful point More<\/a><\/p>\n

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